Finally…i was caught…

You showed up when i was least expecting you.

You stood at the gates for ages and i always knew you are there

Waiting for my glance, seeking my attention

But i was afraid.

Afraid to look you in the eye.

I ran away from you for ages,

thinking, hoping, praying, that you never get to me.

I created walls thicker than few galaxies so that you get lost and never find me.

They also told me to beware of you. To shun you.

Though i was curious, shunned you i did.

I tried my level best.

And befooled myself that i have got rid of you forever.

But fool i was all along.

You got me when i least expected you.

Though i had kept the door open,

i never sensed you will walk in.

I was prepared with a knife of wisdom, sword of enlightenment, and shield of good deeds.

But your beauty got me. Your fierceness intrigued me.

Slowly you seduced me and i must say i allowed you too…

I held my breath as you undressed…

revealing the whole of you to me.

I wasn’t aware behind the black robe.

A shimmering beauty inviting and awaiting a deep embrace.

There came a moment.

The moment of decision.

I had to make a choice.

I could turn my back on you and run from you again or to embrace you the way you are.

I was prepared to turn my back on you once again.

Gripped with the same fear that made me run away from you for ages.

But “the grace” did me in.

Unknowingly i fell in the embrace, such was you beauty and your grace.

When i felt you deeply, i cursed myself for having shunned you for ages.

When i made love, i was being born again.

A birth was taking place in the moment.

Your dark robe was on the ground and you deeply in my embrace.

You within me, me within you.

The unimagined was real.

I was becoming you, and your were me.

As i got up in morning and looked in the mirror.

Was surprised to see you vanished from the bed of roses.

Only the dark robe that you left for me as the remnant of your existence.

I went up to the shower and looked in the mirror.

And was looking forward to find myself reflecting back to me.

And lo behold. I saw myself. And in a flash i saw you.

I had not lost you…after ages i had finally found you.

My deepest apologies for having run away from you.

And my deepest gratitude for having found you.

Thanks for not deserting me and following me across ages.

My dear shadow, just wanna say, I love you.

And thanks for your gifts…you made me whole once again…

Visit soon…looking forward to meet you again.

An interesting Conversation

Something that a friend of mine sent long back…read it by chance so thought of posting it…lill long…but read till the end.

!!An Interesting Conversation — Must Read

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and…..

Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.

Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is this God good then? Hmm?
Student is silent.

Prof: You can’t answer, can you?
Let’s start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From…God…

Prof: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.

Prof:
Student does not answer.

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son…Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Now the student said can I ask something to you Professor.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.

Student: No sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light… But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir… The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive. .

WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?

This is a true story, and the student was none other than

DR. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam , President of India.

He asked who are you?

The old man asked the lill boy who are you?

The lill boy turned around, looked deeply in the old man’s eyes and said.

I am that which is not afraid.

I am that who has been fool many a times.

I am that who cries and weeps when it pains…

And am that who dances like a crazy nut when it rains..

I am that which looks up and wonders about the father sky

And also that which lies on the grass, feels mother earth and cries…

I am saint and also the sinner…

And they say am a sinner…for they believe only sinners are happier lot.

I am all that i believe and also all that “they” believe… 🙂

I just am…free unbounded spirit…not all the time but sometimes for sure.

Sometimes feel deeply shackled and am ok with it…

I am wise and i am a fool…

I love what i am and i love what you are…

Sometimes i love and i know love…sometimes i dont and run away from it…

Love scares me at times…feel like i will loose all that i have if i begin to give into love.

I learnt Love is scarily powerful master…when you embrace it, i know i will go mad…

So thats all that i am and yet i am discovering what all i will be…

And he turns around and asks the old man…Who are you?

The old man says may be the other side you.

I am scared as hell and i have been only two to three things all my life.

Everybody said i need to behave and need to think what others think.

And i never thought what i wanted but am proud that i did what everyone wanted me to be.

I have been old since i was your age.

I thought thats the right thing to do and grow up and look grim as everybody around me did.

I began to become old when i began to feel i need to do what other do…

And as long as i remembered…what aged me is the thought…what people will think?

The old man asked…

WHAT MAKES YOU SO BEAUTIFUL, YOUNG and CRAZILY INNOCENT.

And the young boy looks up and says…

“I don’t know”… and winks…

The old man feels pain in his heart and wonders can he be like the young boy again.

And suddenly the answer came…

“I don’t know?”

The answer eased him as it dint say that he would never be able to…

but it just said it doesn’t know…

The young boy and the old man have lived through the ages…

So the question is…

WHO ARE YOU?

A letter to Mr. Ego…

Dear Mr. Ego,

Am writing to you to acknowledge your greatness and your all pervasiveness. Centuries have passed. Many gods and concepts of gods have come and gone. But you remained. A triumphant warrior. Sometimes i feel, you look like the hero which is portrayed in films who at the end stands there and has a last laugh over his victory over the villain.

The only saints and masters who could transcend you either had to risk going crazy and i guess they did go crazy. And barring those few, you remained all pervasive. Across centuries. I meet you everyday when i look at myself in the mirror. And every time, i witness anger, hatred, or pain within me or in the eyes of the person whom i see in the places that i visit, I find you there, lurking. You make us flinch. You make us judge. You get us to feel what you want to feel through us. And we honor.

I have seen you lurking even in the eyes of the so called masters. And that makes me bow down to you. I guess it is true that if god is all pervasive then even you are. May be god created you so that he could create some entertainment. You have been successful for many ages to create wars, massacre, separation, lying. And i guess you have been doing your job superbly well.

I have carefully noticed that you also are kind. When people come and move through transformational experience, you trick them into believing that now they have conquered you. I guess you let them enjoy their age old fancy of being enlightened for a while and then you encircle even that experience. Sometimes i wonder how do you manage it.

(aapki performance ka raaj kya hain?) What is the secret of your astounding success, i wonder? You make a few believe that now they have gone beyond you and then you return. It seems like you love to play with them. Like a cat plays with an insect. The cat doesn’t kill it immediately. It hits and waits for the insect to move. And when it moves it hits again. You do the same. You let go of the grip and make the poor man feel he is free and then come back and hit again. And sometimes this sequence continues till the poor man dies. And when he is reborn. There you are. Waiting with your wicked smile.

I guess earlier you would let humans play till they turn 6 to 7 yrs old. Now i see you entering lill earlier. Devouring on their innocence. And you do your job so perfectly that i just cant stop being amazed at your finesse.

I admire the way you show up in casual conversation and slowly take a grip of one of the person and turns it into a heated argument and sometimes fight as well. You make sure that you get rooted very deep in the body as well. During some of my bodywork sessions, sometimes when i see your grip on the person, i have no option but to wait and pray so that you can be little generous and loosen your grip so that the person can breathe easy or feel more freedom.

I guess after God if i respect anything for its sheer magic, i guess it is you. I have seen you sitting tightly on many hearts including sometime mine like a ferocious Snake guarding a treasure. And wont let anyone touch or open the heart filled with love.

And i wonder about your magnificence. Would like to ask you a deeply personal question. Do answer if you can.

What do you really want? And what is your purpose to hold us all so tightly? I am sure there must be some reason which makes you cause what you cause in this world everyday.

As you know that now that i have started off an journey to understand you in your lightest and the darkest manifestation, would request you to reveal your true nature and purpose.

Till then in your awe. And bowing to you with all respect and fear in my heart. You are mighty. May not be all mighty. But surely very might. Hope you get to know you deeper and deeper. Getting to know your different faces. The all knowing face, the poor me face, the angry young man face, the rich guy face, and many others. And i know that the list will be countless. So will just wait patiently to get to know you better.

Deep love.

12 simple Lessons from another journey

As most of you know of my habit of taking periodic breaks and getting lost in nature, this time i went to Konkan with a friend. Though our experience of the whole journey was different, here are snippets of my simple lessons. Will keep it short and sweet. I find them simple because i find everything divine extremely simple. And yet to come across something where play of divine is not present and where he is not speaking to us. Including my untimely or sometimes scheduled journeys 😉

1. While on the journey whether I know it or not, whether I like it or not there will be sign posts to guide me to different destinations.

2. If I miss watching the signpost because I was lost in my “thoughts”, I can’t say there were no signs. They are always there. “They” always put the signposts in life whether we give “them” any credit or not. We are always told by “them” where we are going. And yet we wonder where have i come. And blame it on them for not showing the way.

3. From time to time, i need to get free from “my thoughts” and look around for signs. and then I see them clearly.

4. No matter where you are going, you are shown where else you can go as well. All destinations are always attainable if you wish to realistically see how much time you have in one lifetime. So choose baby choose. Where you want to go.

5. If you are with someone and you wish to explore an unchartered territory, seek for mutual agreement. And then if the road is bumpy you can choose whether to go the distance or return. No matter what you choose. Do it mutually. It helps you enjoy the ride. 🙂

6. On a journey, always know that you can stop anywhere for any long time if you are ok reaching my destination late. In the end both have a different flavor, so choose baby choose again.

7. Do what you please. If ever you get stuck, keep aside worries and ego and ask for help. Sometimes it is best to acknowledge that we have a problem and seek help. Rather than wait for someone to come and help. Or keep suffering silently but know that you choosing it 😉

8. The mysterious is always unfolding, the key lies in the fact whether i am really watching and witnessing “all that is” around me.

9. Sometimes the journeys, where you havent decided the final destination, are more fun and more enchanting. As you can always enjoy the joy of discovering new. There is at times no joy when you know where you are going and what to expect. I love to go to unknown destinations. All the time 😉

10. There are no detours and no time wasting, if you can watch whats around, play some music and have some nice conversations with whom you are traveling.

11. Go where you have never gone before and do what you have never done. You never know what gifts come your way.

12. Enjoying “what is” is truly an art. And i guess am getting better at the art after each journey that i take.

Apart from these simple lessons, I loved what unfolded as a part of a Shamanic Journey that I initiated for my friend. Even those journeys are amazing. Felt great as a Shaman to initiate another journey in the depths of unconscious into the mysterious . Enabling reintegration of the body, mind and spirit. Felt being useful. And that was the most amazing part. My gifts could be used yet again. That made the journey really special.

Story of 2 Cages – Part 1

Once upon a time there lived two cages. In two different parts of the world, and one day they met accidentally and loved what they saw. They saw each other’s cage. Cage 1 felt something for Cage 2. And after some time Cage 2 also felt the something similar for the cage 1. They decided to call what they felt for each other as love. They rejoiced in finding each other as they had always dreamt of finding another Cage. Another Cage which will love and accept them the way they are. And they felt, finally they have found a cage that will do the same. As they decided to stay together, Cage 2 thought, other cages need to know. Cage 1 initially wondered why but later gave in to demands of Cage 2 and decided to let all other cages know about their union.

On the day, they had painted their own cage very beautifully so that they feel good about each other and also themselves. Many other Cages came to witness their union. After all, that was what was “supposed to happen” in the Cage world after 2 cages feel what they felt for each other. Everyone  was happy & celebrated the moment. All Cages were used to this.

And then a beautiful journey began, a journey of Love and Intimacy. They wanted to come close, so close that they could merge with each other. Such was the intensity of the feeling which they had decided to call Love.

As they began to come closer, they began to see each other’s cage more closely. Sometimes they didn’t like what they saw and sometimes they loved what they saw about each other’s cage. Both cages had something or the other stuck in some deep edges. Most of the “dirt” or “Unclean stuff” was settled on the bottom of the cage. And it was there because no one in Cage world revealed these stuck things to each other neither did many know how to clean it themselves. Every cage kept the dirt to itself thinking it is just “dirt”. Sometimes, funnily this so called dirt made them feel that they are “not good enough or clean enough cages”. Their wise men and gurus told them it is dirt and hence it is best forgotton by focusing on God and other spiritual truths about life.

Like all Cages, both chose to ignore that. Reason was, when they looked around they saw that when it comes to bottom all Cages have something stuck their, (including some of their gurus lol) but no one talks or cleans it up. Though they can see the same about everyone, they were not supposed to verbalize or talk about it. It was at times considered profane to discuss that.

One day, Cage 1 saw something about Cage 2 and felt very angry. And asked Cage 2 to change and clean one of the stuck thing. Cage 2 defied vehemently as she was also feeling the same, about the stuck stuff of Cage 1. On the pretext of saving the feeling which they called love, she never shared that. And when she mentioned that the hell broke loose.  And why not, they had built their cage so painstakingly over the years based on what they felt and what world told them about building a “good enough” Cage. After all it was too difficult for the cages to hide “not being good enough feeling” which was a result of their “dirt” and still appear very neat, “clean” and “good”.

The more they fought about how other’s cage is dirtier than their own or their cage better than the other in comparison, the feeling that they once felt for each other was slowly fading off. The same feeling which they were told and felt and they named as Love. And then, what started was the journey of coming closer and going away, coming closer and withdrawing. They didn’t give up. Both believed that they can come closer. But slowly both realized that as long as they are going to focus on the cage there is no hope.

They spoke to other Cages and found it was more or less similar for all of them. And hence it is “natural” for all Cages and “that’s how it is supposed to be”.

Somehow they discovered that they will need to live like other cages. And then they did. They began to live with each other but they maintained safe distance from each other.  Too much intimacy or revealing their cage became dangerous for their co-existence. And the only other option that they saw was going away from each other. But they knew that their cage will always remain so whats the point. So they knew separating was also a painful option. And yet they saw some Cages separating as well. But after a while the Separated cage also again long for the same feeling called love. So they felt no point and lets grow old together.

Since then they have been living that way, and people look at them and say wow what a wonderful pair of Cages. They look so much into each other.

But only they know the truth. And their truth is thats “how it is supposed to be”. And hence who are they to live any differently than other Cages.

Ever since then Cage 1 and Cage 2 have been living that way. Now they have kids Cages. And now they are busy teaching their kids how to be “good enough Cages”.

There were only a few Cages who lived differently, but they never revealed how they lived. And hence in Cage world 99% of cages live this way. There are many priests and wise cages who had written wonderful books and these books also help the Cage world to believe that’s how life could be lived in Cage world. The books written by other 1% cages about how life could be lived differently were burnt and destroyed. And it was fine for these 1%. Because they knew a different truth. And it was fine for them that other’s don’t believe that. They just live the other way but don’t talk about it. They share the secret only to the few who are really committed to discover another way. They have no need to teach it to the world. As they are too busy enjoying and living their way.

Some cages look at this and feel in their caged heart that there is a way. But even to think about new way, sends shudders through their spine. So after a little while of agitating and fighting even they live the same way.

Cage 1 & Cage 2 now are growing old. And now they are teaching other Cages that’s the way to live. The mantra is “maintain safe distance”. Don’t reveal your cage fully nor get closer to look at others cage.

Everyone lives in this Caged World very “happily”. They all look very happy, very happy. And looking at their “happiness” at times, brings tears to my eyes. And then I wonder, there must be the divine reason for this as well and who am I to judge their “happiness”.

And I sit back and get busy with my life. Now getting used to seeing both Cages, the 99% and the 1% and i guess. Both want what they are choosing. And as I look at each Cage and look deep in them, I see “the secret” and wonder why can’t they see. But as they say, that the best kept secrets are always open.

So goes the story of Two Cages.

– to be continued 🙂

* pic courtesy – graphicleftovers.com

Leap Oh miserable man…

Man Oh…you miserable man,

afraid, withdrawn and wounded you stand.

Watching over the edges of the well of love

The depth scares you and you remain around

wondering and wishing if you could ever deep dive

You come around and turn your back again and again

Centuries have gone and only few dared to jump…

But you remain there, watching, gauging the depth of love

But utterly afraid, scared for ages…

Ye its true that if you leap in,

you will hurt and fall many a times too…

But fall you must,

as you will know

the heartaches and pains are beautiful too…

The cry feels so healing and the aching heart so soothing…

The nectar of ecstasy is found here too

And You sit back on the edge, looking at love

wondering…who are you to fall deeply in it…

And i stand deep inside and ask you who are you not to?

You are a son of god…born of love…

May be you have forgotten but i remember…

Been waiting here for your leap,

for you to break through borders of your fears and your in-numerous cages

I call you to jump and dive in love

Just dive with your heart open and your arms ready to embrace

You and I both know, you will fall, will stumble, will be bruised too

your heart will be scarred and might bleed of tears and fears alike

But know for sure,

You will find me there…

I stand there at the core, at the bottom of the pit

with my heart all open

Waiting to usher you in the heavens of freedom that lie here…

And just to be be with you ,

to share and taste the sweet pain of loving heart with you…

So jump you must,

as i call on you…

Have been here for ages waiting for you…

Man o miserable man…

hoping in my heart,

you will jump soon

breaking through the shackles of your boundries

letting go fully

mindlessly yet heartfully

Am waiting here patiently

only for you

only for you…

What “3 Idiots” did to me? and what it might do to you…only if you allow it ?

It brought tears of joy and sense of pride for following my heart when it comes to work.

Didn’t know what this movie was about. Just knew it will be about college and friendship.

Indeed it was. But it brought tears in my eyes, for many reasons than one…Though i never looked for any approval of my actions from the society…here watching this movie made me feel proud of some decisions I had made in my life. The movie was like a message of go ahead follow your heart.

Watching this movie seemed like gods way of saying…go ahead raj…you anyways lived fearlessly…go on explore more boundaries and break through them…

And also it brought me in touch with some critical decisions that shaped my life.

Decision 1. Attending just 45 lectures in 5 years of my college life…yes just 45. And reading Jung & Freud while pursuing B.COM.  lol 🙂

Having been bored to death till 10th in school, I was committed to not attend mindless lectures in college. Whenever someone used to praise a teacher, I would go to “check” the teacher out. And after discovering the boring style of teaching, i would stop attending any further. Thanks to Bhavan’s college which did not make attendance a part of evaluating a good student.

The belief behind the decision was ” You don’t need a teacher reading out from the books to secure your marks”. The deal with parents was, I won’t fail, but don’t expect too much. And it paid off. All years cleared with 2nd class like 80% of population of the college, but saved precious time by not attending lectures. Though I was doing commerce, I was busy reading Freud. LOL.

I loved Freud & Jung and being a commerce student didn’t stop me from reading and exploring their work. One day at a common friend, Sonali’s house who was pursuing her Arts with Psychology, I heard about Freud and Eric Berne and then next day, I was at the book shop buying all second hand books by them. And also some books on Philosophy. The regular routine was go to college. Do time pass with friends at canteen. And then sit under trees in the campus or reading room and read Jung. It was amazing learning time.

Decision 2. Learning English after my graduation, just to become a Copywriter in Ad agency as i loved the idea of being paid for thinking. (I secretly believed then, i can’t do anything but think)

All 5 years of graduation college years, i was learning the ways of the world. As i used to spend time only with friends at college campus, never thought of mastering English whether written or spoken. Though, today i write blogs or articles for newspapers, right after my graduation, I was not able to speak or write grammatically correct english. But what helped was an argument with a Sr. guy in our colony who used to work for AD agency. When I discovered Copy-writer as a profession, i got too excited. Just ideating and writing and being paid for it. 🙂 So went to him for some guidance. He crushed my spirits with a sentence “Don’t even think about it. You are from Marathi medium school, you haven’t done arts or literature. You can’t even speak English, forget writing it. It takes a lot to be a copywriter” So i said. “Well, i am creative and English i can master now” and i still remember his sarcastic laughter. And there you go. I took admission in KC college for ADVT & PR pg course and joined David Sasoon Liabrary at KalaGhoda. During the day, study english at Library, during evenings attend KC lectures. (That too if the mood is good and teachers are good 🙂 Well, now when I look back that was the best time of my life. Learning all by myself. 🙂

Decision 3. To learn whatever I wished or what I felt passionate about. And also whenever I wished. I discovered that Age, current profession, no relevance to past experience are just excuses for not learning and growing your fears.

In 99, at age 24 while running my own business in security systems, I heard about NLP for the first time. And there I was in the first batch of Masters Certification program from NFNLP US, spending close to a couple of lacs. It was way expensive then. But what the heck. My grandma used to say “Kharya Shikhanala mol nasate” means “True Education is priceless. No cost can justify it. And till date i believe that was one of best investment I made in my learning about mind sciences.

Decision 3. Not pursuing my MBA. Though MBA was a fad during those times. But I believed that again was a waste of time.

Sometime my corporate clients get amused when they ask me where did I do my MBA from. And I shamelessly say, I haven’t. Watching them turn surprised. Because here I am consulting them on their Revenue or Business model or Pricing Strategy. Or aspects of Org Design and Development which only the MBAs were supposed to know. I don’t disrepect MBA education, but I genuinely feel that doesn’t decide much about your growth in Corporate World as it is widely believed.

All my learning about Systems Thinking was hands on and learnt from Sanjiv, my mentor in Systems Thinking. And hence never felt that a business school is the first step to learn something about the business or corporate world. All it takes to learn is some books, some experts in the field, willingness to work even for free just to learn, and some dose of passion. That was a big discovery then and still now.

Decision 4. Quitting corporate world for reasons of my heart. The key reasons were a. To be with my friends b. To sit in barista and chill while at work c. To work just 10 days full-time in a month.

I was criticized, made fun of or was scared by many well meaning friends, when I said I wish to quit the fancy job to start my consulting and executive coaching firm. And my reasons were simple. I loved Barista, I loved Pune and all my dear friends were in Pune. And today I feel glad to be there with my best friends who have become my family now. Sam, Manisha & their kid Sid. I can do anything for them and vice versa. My discovery was that the biggest joy and fun can be shared only with friends. For eg. today, watching “3 idiots” with them was grand fun. And singing along with Sid the song All is well 🙂 was super fun.

Decision 5. Creating a multi-faceted career to honor my different facets. Not believing in traditional wisdom of career building by doing just one thing for donkey years.

My new visiting card gets people puzzled. As it expresses all aspects of my work. One side talks about all the corporate work and other side talks about all my work in area of counseling, healing & bodywork. Though sometimes people look at me with a lill doubt how can one person do all this, but as they begin to go deeper and interact further, even they get inspired to do the same.

It is actually simple to build a multifaceted career. Sometimes i wonder why many are not doing it.

While I was watching “3 idiots”, some scenes, especially the one when all of them are sitting and drinking and Aamir inspires them to follow their hearts, made me feel great about my decisions of following my heart.

Won’t tell you the story as I don’t wish to spoil your movie experience.

Also another thing it did is, it added Aamir as another fav actor in my list. But the best star (not necessarily best actor) in my list is still SRK. Am very loyal by design so can’t change that. 🙂

If there is only one thing you can do after the movie. I would give a free advice (which I normally don’t do, being a Coach:-) )

And that is . Drop all excuses and run behind your dreams, your passions, things that you love to do. Otherwise at the end of life, there is only a regret that often starts with a sentence… “I wish, I had….”

Money happens, Security happens, Everything happens once you choose. Its a false belief which says winning in rat race is more important. It doesn’t hold true for all of life. Sharing from experience 🙂

The movie leaves you with a secret which is the baseline of  3 Idiots “Choose excellence, success will follow” Having lived it, I sincerely agree with it.

Wish you a grand holiday season. May you start new year with some new decisions, that can change the course  of your life, for the rest of your life. Love you all. God bless.

The Final Freedom

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You wait at the gates of heaven,

and you have walked a long distance,

You can see where you started

and you can see all that you have accumulated

At the gates of heaven, you are asked to be free.

You ask how do i do that? How do i become free?

You are told “Become who you were before you started this journey”

And you realize, to do that, you need to become zero

You drop everything that you carried for so long

Seems you are doing it but realize its happening to you

And in that instance awakening happens,

You go back to who you were before you chose the journey

You enter the gates,

thankful that you got back home

Seems like the end of journey

Little did you know what lies ahead

Ignorant you become once again.

A voice says “So rest for a while in the nothingness”

As you might want to take the journey again.

When you get bored of nothingness.

May be starting from being a rock again, or a drop in ocean or a bird or anything under and beyond the sun 😉

May be a lunatic, may be a saint, may be a victim, may be a simple man or may be a deadly saint

You will choose again to entertain yourself by entering this fascinating world of experience

Craving for only one thing an experience.

Any experience will do, but i need an experience you say

So you choose a new experience every day.

In the morning you are born and in the night you die.

A life time gets over and you start the next with a cry.

Another experience and another day and another life.

No matter who you become, the memory of who you are will be taken away

Till the pathless path will enable the remembrance…

of who you originally were?

You begin to wake up.

When you ask the question “Who am I?”

And you are fully awake when You know and living the answer.

And it takes as long as it takes…

You can’t rush the process

You are exactly where you should be.

Notice the perfection of where you are.

And you will gain “A Glimpse of Freedom”

First step to “Final Freedom”

Unleashing Being – Fantasy of divine

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On an idle sunday, the divine mused. And thought let me fantasize. And so it did.

The divine with eyes closed, began to create…something that went on to become a reality in one of the universe he had created.

Here’s his fantasy.

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Once upon a time, there lived a queen.

A queen, a ruler and yet another special soul.

One day she returned to her palace to take a break from all the people she had to meet. And all the formal, false pleasantries she had to exchange. She was feeling very heavy. With all that she was doing, thinking, feeling and wearing. So she decided to pause. She went to her special part of the palace. An empty room. Her favorite  place to be herself.

She stepped up to the mirror.

And suddenly realized what all is she wearing

Felt, am looking good but this weight is not bearable anymore.

Think, am wearing too much

So first she took out all that she felt bad about

Which made up her evening gown,

Her gown was laced with her stories of miseries, of abuse, of unjustice, of hurt

It was very difficult to just let it slide,

As she was wearing it for a long time.

Every time she wore this gown, it would ensure some sympothy, some love, some attention coming her way

It was very difficult to let that go, as she thought this will stop even the trickles of love coming her way

Very reluctantly she let go of that

She felt lighter and at ease. For the first time she felt like singing her heart out.

What a release it was. First painful and then turning joyful.

She danced naked across her room. feeling the ecstasy and the freedom.

And she danced and she sang.

As wildly and as passionately and as fully as she could.

Finally she was free. And then she was tired and sat in front of the mirror.

And while dancing she realised there was something more she was wearing.

Her precious diamond necklace…

each diamond was precious.

Some diamonds were gifted by her parents, some by her brothers and sisters,

Some diamonds had come from teachers and some from kind neighbors.

And some diamonds, she didn’t know where they had come from. And yet they were there.

She had made this diamond necklace painstakingly, through out her life.

And adorned it with pearls of wisdom from the masters she met on the way

and the self-help books she had read. And from the tapes on developing confidence she listened to.

The necklace was made up of her beliefs of right and the wrong, the shoulds and should nots, doing and non doing, good and evil, the sacred and the profane, the light and darkness…etcetra, etcetra, etcetra…;-)

As she started to remove it, she felt she need not.

Its just a necklace which she could keep on

as the weight of the gown had already dropped.

When suddenly she realized where she is going, she discovered, she doesn’t need that as well

So she unhooked the beautiful necklace which always adorned her neck and was close to heart,

And slllluuur, it fell,

She could fully feel the necklace sliding down, the cold heavy necklace touching her breasts, her stomach and her yoni

Falling down and carrying everything, she held stored in her body.

And as the necklace fell. There was a beautiful silence. She was lill more lighter.

A kind of silence, she had never heard before.

And that was gone too…

She began to feel lighter…a feeling she never felt before

The nakedness began to feel exciting…little did she know that the real revealation is yet to come.

As her body revealed and glistened in the mirror she witnessed the extra-ordinary

For the first time, she discovered that the light is not reflection of light from her body,

It is emanating from deep within her body….

Lill surprised she looked closely in the mirror

And was exhilerated to find the light coming out through the pores of her skin

As she glimpsed the light, she wanted to connect to the source

And was wondering what does she need to do for the fullness of the light to emerge,

And in the moment, she discovered her body was made up of all the good she was holding onto that she believed she had.

She was now confronted with a difficult choice

To transcend the body and embrace the light within or to stop here at the sacred nakedness of the moment.

There came a voice that said…it is your choice, choose the body or choose your naked being lying dormant deep within for centuries

Once a queen, happy and at ease with all that she wore to look good and acceptable,

now was the moment of truth…

She pondered, i can stop here as the weight of the good and bad is dropped

After a brief pause, she said let me take a step and see what lies within

So finally she chose to let go of the body…

And the miraculous unfolded

Suddenly everything went silent,

a long pause.

And at the end of the pause, there started a huge celebration

A celebration of a rare phenomena in the universe

The whole universe was singing and dancing. And the music and dance reached a peak.

And why is should not celebrate. At least, someone after a long time was waking up to her light within

And the celebration was needed. And it amazing

As she was busy enjoying and witnessing the celebrative universe.

The ultimate was being revealed

the only thing she saw in the mirror was pure light,

pure being.

A being that expanded and pervaded everything and every being.

Finally she was realized she was awakened

A goddess was born

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With eyes closed. The divine smiled. What a wonderful fantasy. Thinking he should create more often. And went on to have his evening tea with friends and family.